This poem stumbled on me this morning, amidst a painful time. What does it mean to receive the treasures of life not as a possession but as a gift? Including people? How do we live in gratitude for what has been given without demanding that it continue to be experienced in the same way? How do we release people we love to grow differently toward the new than how we knew and loved them in the before? As much as we want to “bottle up” the way things were, or have been, how do we live in constant openness to the “the next song” in our lives — and in theirs?
Only Once
All which, because it was
flame and song and granted us
joy, we thought we’d do, be, revisit,
turns out to have been what it was
that once, only; every invitation
did not begin
a series, a build-up: the marvelous
did happen in our lives, our stories
are not drab with its absence: but don’t
expect to return for more. Whatever more
there will be will be
unique as those were unique. Try
to acknowledge the next song in its body — halo of flames as utterly
present, as now or never.
~ Denise Levertov ~

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